G-Dep sits down with XXL to explain that fatal shooting and the night of his confession.

How are you holding up?

G-Dep: I’m good, maintaining, and trying to keep in good spirits. I’m meditating when I can and trying to have some alone time, with the time that they’re giving me.

You were 18 at the time of the shooting. What do you remember about the attempted robbery?

I was just a kid in the street. I had a considerable amount of family.

I wasn’t too destitute at the time. I was just into the street life, so a lot of the things I was doing was just going with the territory.

Take us through December 15, when you walked into the station and confessed.

It was an ongoing thing. It wasn’t one of those things where I said, Okay, I’m going to just do it. I was thinking about it for a while. That day, I did an interview for this public-access show. Right after that, I decided to just go ahead to the precinct.

I remember, in the precinct, when everything transpired, [the police officer] gave me a phone to call my daughter’s mother. I was like, “Yeah, I’m going to have to go down for this, go through the system and all of that.” So that was the first taste of just realizing that it’s a wrap.

How did you make the decision about when to do it? How did you know it was the right time?

I felt like I was going to go through the same thing again—being happy, enjoying food and family—and I still didn’t handle what I thought I needed to. The reason why I probably did that at that time is I wanted…I couldn’t really continue to move on. I couldn’t move on and keep trying to satisfy myself if I didn’t deal with that.

But why confess after 17 years?

I didn’t feel like I could keep going on, living my life—indulging in life and feeling the highs and lows and just basking in what I thought was a good life—knowing what I did affected someone else’s life. It was the fact that I had children that I thought about stuff like that. I didn’t feel it was fair. I just wanted to take care of that, and have some resolve for the situation. I didn’t know what was going to be the outcome, but that was the only way I knew to deal with it.

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